Currently Listening Minutes to Midnight By Linkin Park What I've Done see related

My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away.

Well, here we are. 3rd week into summer and I'm still bored.

I had a really rough night last night and today isn't any better. My boy and I got into a huge fight, and I think he's gone for good this time. I'm not really surprised. We both admitted to doing such stupid things and that's what changed us. All I really wanted was to feel the way I did when we first started going out. I miss him like crazy and I can't stop crying. My phone has been shut off and I wont go online. I just can't stand to talk about it and the fool I have become.

I need a change, though. I need to back away from everything and let loose for awhile. I want to spend the next couple of months to find myself and stop the lying and cheating. I just hope everyone understands that I need this time. I hope I can get some thinking done when I go to NC with my cousins. I'm so stoked, but scared. Every little thing there is going to remind me of him & everything we shared down there.

In other news, my little Frankie is turning the big #2! I love that little boy with all my heart. He's talking more and more and just becoming cuter by the minute. He is truly blessed with the most amazing parents alive and I don't look forward to the day that he might see the bad that is out in the world.

Just wanted to update a little. I'm going to throughout the summer.

Ying-Yang- I know I haven't responded to your calls & texts and I'm sorry. But I promise when I'm ready to talk about it, you're going to be the first one I come to. Thanks for all your help and support! I couldn't ask for a better best friend, especially after evertyhing that I did. I probably don't deserve to have someone like you after everything either.

I'll face myself..to cross out what i’ve become

peace out!

Currently Listening One X By Three Days Grace see related

Heyyy. So, hardly an update. It's snowing like crazy outside, but for some reason I doubt we'll have a snow day. Because I feel like if I keep saying that, we will, but I know that we wont. So, bottom line, it sucks. But here's my funntastical weekend.

Friday night- Ryan came over and had some Dr. Pepper with something else,which totally messed me up. I ended up calling katie, only to find out Mark was destroying her room, which is why my weekend was so fucked up.
Saturday- Ryan and I hung with C for a little bit then later I went over katies. We watched Grandma's Boy like 80 times.
Today- Woke up at like 6. Sat around until like 11. Finally, we were ready to piss off Markie. So our prank plan started...

we put cups full of water all in front of his door so he couldn't get in and sprayed axe all over the fucking place.
We're dorks, we know. But we needed a 12 AM wake up laugh. It wasn't a good idea, because now we're both done.

So, not much happened. But pray to God we get a snow day tomorrow. I totally needz it and I wanna see Ryan before he leaves. Not to mention time with my ying-yang.

I'm going to go watch more comedy central. hells yeah.

Peace out <3

Currently Watching Love Actually see related

Let us go get the shit kicked out of us by love.

So... quick update.

I've been sick for the past 2 days. I was at my mom's both days. I never realized how spectacularly boring it is there. We get report cards at school tomorrow and I'm unbelievably nervous. I also start my diet tomorrow. skinnieminnie. yay.4:30 AM.. workouts from now on. I cannot wait.

Ryan and I are back together. I tried convincing him not to go out with me. It didn't work. We went to one of his skate competitions down in Cincinnati awhile ago. Amazing night that was. Pictures shall come soon. {be sure to ignore extreme makeout seshs.}

Other than that, life is pretty boring right now. I have a date with Cassie and The Girl Next Door. <3 Love me chicas. Speaking of, I MISS MY YING-YANG!!! WE NEED TO HANG LIKE SOON!!!

'Till then..

peace out <3

CAMAG: What is your favorite thing about your car?
"I'd have to say how I can drive around with my girlfriend," Ryan says. "and we blast the music and sing a long. All my friends get a laugh out of it. We're pretty big dorks."

....that was absolutely adorable <333

We Fly High, No Lie...

So. I'm here getting ready to go to some skateboard thing with Ryan. And I think it's weird but here's what went down...

Bee & I weren't feelin the whole boyfriend//girlfriend thing... so we ended it.
2 days later, Ryan calls me. I miss the call, he leaves a weird voicemail stating 'it's me and I was hoping we could talk.' So, for some strange reason, Cassie convinced me to call him back when she was over. Yeah. That wasn't the least bit awkward.
He expected me to be all happy when he lied and cheated so I was lyke whateeeevvv.
We decided to meet at lunch and... uhm... that was gay.
We got there I was like "Why did you call?" He said: " I've been thinking lately and I miss you. "
I kept telling him that we can't just start where we were. I was finished and done.
So, we just left it at 'no guarantees.'

How lovely, right? Yes. Well, now I'm going to watching him skate and head to dinner. Hopefully my night ends good because I have had the worst week EVER. so I think I'll update more when I get home.

Wish me luck.

BALLLIIINNN. =P

Just for giggles....

Haha.

I love reading about suck fake people. It makes my day 100%% better.

Don't flatter yourself, sweetheart.

peaceee <3